happy

a few blogs i read have been mentioning regina spektor. regina who? yeah, i thought that too. no idea who she is. but then i youtube searched her, and came across her video for the song 'fidelity'. and...wow.awesome. it's a fabulous song, (her voice is terrific,btw),the video is great and fits the tune perfectly (i love the part when they're throwing the coloured dust all over the place and on each other).... *sigh of contentment*.... what else could you want?




i am feeling ridiculously happy tonight. and no, it's not because i managed to do my accounting homework successfully. quite the opposite, actually. i'm damn frustrated with my homework, but it's as if my body decided to confront the waves of frustration by releasing endorphins or whatever hormone that's keeping me cheerful at the moment.

no one reads my blog anymore (except for kakak n jia yee :>) but nevermind about that. i'm just happy i can put up tons and tons of videos. oh, but it must be wrong to do so, surely? i must be going against some copyright rule or infringment or whatever? oh well. whatever je la.

the SPM started today.or was it yesterday? ahah, every time i think about it i'm grateful it isn't me who's going through it. Fizik, Bio n Kimia exam papers, especially the kertas 3 eksperimen questions just seem like a distant memory now, and thank God for that. One thing i DO recall, however, was thinking throughout the exam how nice the coloured pics in the question papers were :p

ahah, in fact, now that i think about it, i recall some other stuff to. There was this one time where, before one exam, we had just entered the hall and were all seated, when i realized that i had accidentally brought my handphone in the hall. it was in my pocket. and i sorta freaked, because we're not supposed to bring it in, and yada yada yada. well, what was i supposed to do? i couldn't go back to the canteen where all our bags were, it was too far and besides, we were about to start.

i guess i could have taken a risk, and just kept it there, hoping that the invigilator wouldn't suddenly take the initiative to frisk me ke ape. but then tak berani pulak la nak buat cam tu. i mean, what if the invigilator found out n accused me of cheating or whatnot?habisla my spm, fail one paper. so, instead what i did was, i got up from my seat and rushed out to the entrance of the dewan,which is as the far end of the hall. there, i searched frantically for a place to stash my phone. in the toilet?nah,too risky. where, WHERE? well,that's when i spotted the several pokok bunga in pasu arranged in rows along the hall entrance. heh.

yeah. i went and put my phone in the pasu. it looked pretty hidden, camouflaged among the leaves n dirt. i prayed that it wouldn't be stolen ke ape, then rushed back inside to take my exam.

now, one year later, as i recall this incident, i realize that yes, that WAS a particularly stupid thing to do and that i should have just told the invigilator i had accidentally brought it in and handed it over to him for safekeeping. but hey, i was an emotionally unstable, high-strung, anxiety-stricken exam candidate on the verge of panic. you can't blame me for the temporary lapse of logical sense.

and it all ended okay what. i didn't lose my phone, and i did pretty good for the paper :> alhamdulillah.

at the moment, i'm feeling particularly happy for no apparent reason. there's a reckless, feel good vibe in the air. it's making me tell myself not to worry about accounting to the extent of pulling my hair out. just take it a step at a time. *second sigh of contentment*. i hope this vibe doesn't wear off when i go to sleep kejap lagi. i need it to get through class tomorrow.