a tentative look into relationships

since i've entered sunway, a lot of people(oklah, not A LOT, just a few, but still a substantial amount in my standards) have been asking me, 'dah ade sesiape ke'?takkan takde kot?' (for those of you that might not understand, they're asking if i have a boyfriend yet :p)

well,no,as a matter of fact i don't. and when i say so, usually, the next question to come up is 'takkan ko takde suke sesiape kot?'

ok,let's be honest here. i'm sure at some point we've all liked/like someone. in fact, i used to like someone some time ago(that's all i'm saying and i'm not telling anyone who that person is and when i liked him, because it was a long time ago, so i'm not telling, even if you interrogate me to the point of being like the Inquisition,so there).

and i'm sure most of us entertain the idea that somewhere out there there's this person who is 'the one' for us. and in between all this is of course there are the temporary infatuations, the brief attractions to certain people, etc.

i've never had a boyfriend before, and oklah,since we're being honest here, i'll admitt it. i DO get jealous sometimes when i see other people with their partners. this envious feeling usually occurs a)when i'm alone and wished i had someone to talk to, b)when i see friends getting cool presents from their boyfriend on their birthday and c)when i'm stuck hearing lovely sentimental love songs.

but i've been thinking bout it lately, and what exactly IS so special about having a boyfriend? looking at other couples(i'm not referring to anyone specific, just in general from what i've seen), having a bf means going out together, holding hands,combining your names together (example: aminah couple with ali-->amali) taking pictures to put up at friendster, sending each other mushy testimonials using terms such as 'cayunk' for sayang and saying i love you to each other for the whole world to see! for God's sake, kalau dah kahwin takpela, but at our age, do we even know what love is? but oklah, this is just a surface view, maybe my pandangan is wrong.

if i ever have a boyfriend(which so far seems quite unlikely, seeing how i can't even talk to the opposite sex properly), it would be someone i could TALK TO, about anything. anything at all! we could discuss movies, music, books, religious issues, world issues, my problems, his problems, life, studies, anything. he wouldn't be someone i would be awkward around, the type yang kalau keluar sesame nak decide tempat makan pon would be an awkward affair(you know what i mean.or do u?). instead, he would be my best friend. the best friend i could go out for breakfast with and over nasi lemak and paru or roti canai or whatever we'd just dissect whatever topic at hand. but even as my best friend, he'd still be someone who gives me flutters in my belly. does any of this make any sense?sigh. i'm rambling, aren't i.

some of you may already be snickering 'hohoho,ade orang yang NAK ke couple dengan die ni? Perasan je lebih'. well, sod u. nah,i'm just kidding.