and the saddest part is, i don't know what i'm supposed to be feeling anymore.
i wanted to be angry at God, and scream 'i've gone through this!i thought it was supposed to be MY time now!'. but i guess i deserve this.
i know i don't have the right to complain much, it's just a B after all. and i'm so sorry i'm being so self-centred and melodramatic. but i feel broken, somehow.
people are telling me to look on the bright side, and i'm trying to, but i can't stop crying. and i can't stop thinking that it was wrong to think that maybe, this time around, i was special enough to be outstanding. maybe i'm not special at all.
i was wrong to think anything.
exaggeration and tall tales galore
Thursday, August 09, 2007
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6 comments:
i just read surah al-insyirah tonight. and two lines that shall console you at the moment might be ayat 5 and 6.
"Maka sesungguhnya bersama kesulitan itu ada kemudahan." (94:5)
"sesungguhnya bersama kesulitan itu ada kemudahan." (94:6)
and someone told me, we often judge Allah by the things we did not get, not by the heaps of things we got before.
it's unfair to push someone to have them think at the bright side at the moment they are really sad and depressed. but the best solution, is turning into the our manual. the Quran. and there lies ALL solutions to ALL our problems.
insyaAllah. :)
aaaawwwwwwhhh.i really hope i cn do something to cushion ur anger.
i really do. it might seem tht no one understands what ure feeling, but believe me, i would at least try.
u have every right to be angry.
i'm giving u a week to be a normal human being and curse everything under the sun and everything you think is unfair.
when ure finished, ponder this, rezeki manusia ada di mana-mana.
who knows ure rezeki is not know,maybe later. if u preservere, the Big Guy might even give you more that you can imagine.
its hard yeah, but the hardest thing to do is usually the most right thing to do.
now, how about some ice -cream with whipped cream?
mint? green tea? chocolate chip?
persevere=persevere*
know=now*
God.people,never write something when u only woke up. go get some breakfast instead.
these 2 peeps up here say it best.And I feel helpless because I can't comprehend how you feel at the moment.
There is no wisdom from me here.
But you will pick yourself up.I know you will.My prayers go with you.
hey atiqah...getting As is not the destination. it's just part of a long journey and I believe there's plenty of fun and awesome things installed for you along the way..
everything happens for a reason =D
anna:ur my constant reminder to ingat Allah and to see beyond the surface of things. thank you, and i'm plenty glad to have u as a friend.
nani:it was more blind disappointment and puzzlement than anger. either way, i'm pondering :) and i'll try to persevere, honest.
ice cream with whipped cream sounds gooooood. can i have mine with banana slices skali?
aijud:thanx aijud, the fact that u tried to give some solace despite not knowing what was going on truely was a cheerful point during my temporary doom and gloom. i'm picking myself up :D
shao:i'm super sorry, i've been so caught up moping around, that i haven't gotten around to wishing u CONGRATS for ur results!proud of ya, mate!
and yes, i'm trying to grasp the fact that everything happens for a reason. i'm getting there, by hook or by crook ;)
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