All hell's about to break loose.

"this is no Bridget Jones, this is no-KILL THE DIRECTOR!!!!".

My favourite line from The Wombat's 'kill the director'.

this post will be over-stuffed with songs and a video.

ever think that exams are just one big fraud?

SPM was supposed to be the life-altering exam. the exam all the teachers urged you to 'study betul2 kali ni je, untuk last exam ni'. last exam my foot. they portray it like some kind of final walkway, the ultimate gunung of cabaran. so you work your ass off, climbing the stupid gunung, and when you finally reach the top and yelp with delight at your success, what happens then? you find out that there's nothing else to do except climb back down. anti-climax.

here's the problem with exams:you put too much faith in thinking that you'll be gratified if you do well. well, that's my bloody problem anyway.

now here i am again. this time i don't have any teacher/penceramah motivasi telling me how important this exam is, but i figured, 'this is going to determine what university i get in, so that's gotta be somewhat important, yea?'

and when i'm actually in a university, taking my finals, i'll be thinking, 'well, this is going determine whether i get first-class honours or not, so i guess it's important,kan?'. it never ends.

i have no idea whether i'm prepared for the interview tomorrow. if 'prepared' means having read the last 10 issues of The Economist, then no, i am not ready. what IS ready, anyway? tell me what, i'll just try to be honest, and not bull around pretending to be someone i'm not. fair enough? i knew for the start this was going to a long-shot, so why fret over it?

rilo kiley.hmm. now there's a thought. should look up their stuff.

i LOVE this song by Meet Uncle Hussain. and how do i know i love it? the first time i heard it on the radio, i tried to find everything wrong with it. the vocals were too screechy, and i found the way the singer does that thing where malay artistes sing in malay with a slang macam orang mat salleh cakap supremely annoying. but, after a few listens, i had to concede that i just adore this song. jiwang lyrics and all.


so here i face that awful question i usually try to avoid by promising to study hard enough in order to be prepared for exams on time: what if i don't do well? what if i can't do my accounting and get a B, or worse yet,a C?

shitcakes. and it's funny, considering the fact that i HAVE gotten Bs and Cs before, you'd think i'd have gotten it in my head to stop being so kabut about studies.

whatever. i'll just do my best, and let God do the rest.

but wait, HAVE i done my best?

shitcakes.

ok, ok, enough paranoid worrying. here's something to end things nice and sprightly. for those of you who skipped all the songs(and i know most of you have,haha), at least watch this trailer for 'The Nanny Diaries', ok? looks pretty promising.