Kupasan Kpop

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For God's sake, no. No! We shall not partake in such mundane discussions on a public holiday!

Yes, it's Good Friday here in Melbourne, so the shops are closed, the weather is chilly, and I have a tentative notion of doing nothing. Nothing.

While I think of something to type, let me entertain you with Clara C's cover of Rocketeer which is lovely, I'm a sucker for trumpet inclusions.


Things have been..... and here I falter, because I don't really know how things have been. Some inner part of me wants to sit down with you and look you in the eye and say help me, please, please. Another part of me is convinced things are ok, I am on track, and things are ok and will fall into place, I will make them fall into place. Another part of me laughs at the melodrama of it all, sometimes scornfully and with disgust at my foolishness, other times it is less unkind, and it nudges me gently and says this will be regarded with humorous wonder in just a few months from now, I will look back and think it was so amusing how out of sorts I was.

But anyway, how are you? Been occupying yourselves well? This morning I tried going for a run outside at the nearby park, I think time spent jogging solidly barely touched 5 minutes, the majority of the outing was occupied by walking and sitting down on bench reading Around the World in Eighty Days before deciding breakfast was needed.

I wonder, what music do you listen to when jogging? I've posed this question to kakak and my friend Azrieal, the former giving me an answer by saying she has a specific playlist for running without actually detailing said playlist, while the latter gave a more straightforward example of stuff by Sneaky Sound System. I tend to find dance and pop music the best motivators for jogging, something with a solid beat. Other times, I play songs that I imagine I have choreographed something to that I will perform as part of an appearance on a Korean variety show. As ridiculous as that is, it does seem to help distract from the tiredness. Don't kill the daydream of being a kpop idol, yo.

Speaking of kpop, wei! WEI! Some releases have definitely been getting the thumbs up and giddy approval, in my books anyway.

1. Big Bang's Love Song is a go. Sounded very U2. The video is one of the nicest among recent ones, I think, I'm a sucker for semi-slow motion, seemingly one-take shots.

2. Daesung's Baby Don't Cry. This isn't a single, but it's Daesung's solo song in Big Bang's Special Edition album. I was so excited to hear this, because I think at the end of the day I just want a good pop song, which this is. Plus, Daesung has an awesome voice, we all know that. I think he's been given the least amount of solo exposure within the group, but I think things may be turning, did anyone see his scenes in the Tonight video? Wah, when did he become all leading-man material and allowed hot scenes with a female counterpart?

3. Rania's Dr. Feelgood. Say what you want about their image, but I think they're fierce (even though their leather outfits are kind of fugly.I have a thing against the short shorts and boots combination). One thing that puts me off is when a group can't embody whatever concept they're trying to portray. Groups who look awkward and out of place doing cutesy aegyo and 'oppa' stuff, groups who try so hard to be sexy it just falls flat, etc. But with Rania, they totally pulled it off! The song itself is catchy, they all sound like capable singers, the choreography is spot-on, they are in sync and look all empowered. Like they could eat cute-aegyo-doing-girls for breakfast. Like they could bust into the kpop world and show how sexy's supposed to be done. Now if only I could tell the members apart.

4. Brave Girls' Do You Know. Another rookie release I'm excited about, though I was unfortunately disinterested in the follow up song, So Sexy. I like this one though, I think it's really pretty, in an old-school r&b/soul(sebenarnya aku main tibai je cakap genre ni, I could be wrong) fashion, and I'm digging the style and choreography.

Ok. Way too much kpop. Way too much for someone trying to convince strangers to hire her, anyway. Lebih baik pergi makan lunch.